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A HEART FOR A HEART

Kau tahu, aku bisa tak mencintaimu. Aku benci kamu. Aku sanggup mengalihkan cintaku sedalam aku membencimu. Bukankah batas antara cinta dan benci sangat tipis? Aku tak percaya jika kau mencintai seseoranng, kau tak sanggup membencinya. Mengapa? Jika ia membencimu, apakah kau akan terus mencintainya? Bodoh! Benci adalah cinta. Dan cinta adalah benci. Kau mencintainya dan kau membencinya. Jika ia membencimu, maka bencilah ia. Karena itu cinta yang ia inginkan.

Hidup membutuhkan keseimbangan. Dan aku akan berusaha sekuat tenaga agar terus seimbang. Tak ada yang lebih memberatkan dari cinta maupun benciku. Aku sanggup mencintaimu sedalam aku membencimu. Benciku padamu seberat cintaku.

Aku akan membalas semua yang kau berikan padaku dengan sepadan. Setimpal untuk setiap gelak tawa maupun air mata yang aku berikan. Sama untuk setiap goresan maupun bunga yang mekar dalam hatiku. Tak ada yang gratis di dunia ini. Aku tak sudi kau berikan hatimu cuma-cuma. Kau bagikan sayangmu sukarela. Dan kau hibahkan pedihmu tak berbalas. Aku akan memberimu hal yang sama.

Ketika kau mencintaiku, aku akan mencintaimu. Dengan proporsi yang sama tentunya. Aku tak akan menjadi budak cintamu, dan aku tak sudi menjadi tuan cintamu. Kita sama, kita seimbang. Jika kau menciumku, aku akan menciummu. Ketika aku memelukmu, aku ingin kau memelukku. Ketika kita bergandengan tangan, maka jemari kita akan saling berpaut, tak ada yang menarik atau menggenggam.

Ketika aku membencimu, aku tak akan ragu untuk mengeluarkan kata demi kata yang akan menyakitimu, lebih dari kau menyakiti aku. Aku akan balas semua tikaman pisaumu. Aku akan toreh hatimu sedalam kau sayat hatiku. Dan ketika kau memutuskan untuk semakin menaburkan garam di luka yang kau buat, aku akan membakar hatimu dan memecahkannya berkeping-keping. Sampai hanya debu yang tersisa, yang tak bisa kau rekonstruksi kembali dan hanya bisa kau kenang, bahwa dulu kau punya sepotong hati sebagai bagian dirimu. Dan hati itu kini telah kuhancurkan.

Jadi, cintailah aku dan bencilah aku sebagaimana aku mencintaimu dan membencimu. Sebersit cinta untuk selintas benci. Sepotong benci untuk sekerat cinta.

MANUSIA DI DALAM PHOTO

kau masih di sana: menempel bagai upil
tidak sanggup bergerak berontak
walau musim terus berganti curang
kenapa tak melonjak saja
lalu teriak pada telinga tuli dunia
bahwa sudah berpuluh tahun kau terkurung

KUTEMANI KAMU SAMPAI DI SINI

sebelum bulan terbit
dan segalanya menjadi bibit
lalu membumbui manis pada pahit

ombak menyeruak ke semak-semak
menepikan asin ke dahagamu
ketika segalanya telah berubah
menembus bius lagu tunggu
sampai saatnya menjadi kerak

usiamu tengah menuju dini hari
seperti para pencari kebenaran
berjalan di deretan bangkai dunia
jangan ada lagi yang membayang
betapa banyak kenangan najis
menjadi bangsat-bangsat tersesat

from: cybersastra.com oleh Amir R.

October 28, 2004 5:28 PM
Subject: what u need rite now..?
Message: Apa yang paling kamu butuhin saat ini?

@ FERI @
From My deepest heart: gw lg butuh untuk bs
berteman baik lg sama mantan gw!!!!gile, gw ga
tahan aja berantem sm tuh orang....coz she's
my best fren ever!!!!!!

:RiNaNaNaNaNa:
katalog oriflame

.: vivi :.
happY :D

: Dhenny :
Girl Friend :)

[nazira]
a long vacation with my best friends, ke bali gitu..

_TaNiKa_
mau bintang,,, sama mau gila2an sama anak,,,

::uThieTiReD::
buTuH DiA!!!gw mau huBungan kiTa baik2 aJa!!
ga cuex2 kya giNi!!ga MUSUHAN!!!gw buTuh
kaSih saYng DiA!!!!

~ChoQ~
Dia yg nun jauh disana.......Miss u much....I need U
Ngiel......

Ilma:
setelah 21 orang... balik lagi ke gw
gw butuh OLAHRAGA!! :p abis selama ini males
banget. sampai badan melar kayak gini, gak
enak bawaannya hihihi :p.

++++sano++++
artikel ttg bug......eh...gw pengen ketemu lo......

==FaJaR==
satu kata saja...CEWE...gw butuh pendamping,
lama bgt ni jomblo..=(

-Amosh-
HIKMAT dari Tuhan.. supaya gw bs bijaksana dan
menerima segala sesuatu yang terjadi dengan
bersyukur. And keep struggling for what i believe
in... without any thoughts of giving up or changing...

-Sevy-
Pekerjaan...klo ga cepet2 dpt gawe bisa2 gua mlh
bakal jadi PRT rangkap baby sitter di rumah....

rangga:
butuh orang yang bisa jadi tempat curhat masalah
apa aja, ngasih ketenangan n bisa buat
ketawa...karena saat ini lagi stres berat....bete...n
pusing ama kerjaan yang numpuk...n butuh
kendaraan buat mudik....

=>odon<=
tiket pesawat medan-jakarta buat tanggal 12 nov..
set dah terancam gak dapet tiket gw, masuk
waiting list di semua biro travel n maskapai..
ada yg bisa bantuin gw gak neh?..
mudik..mudik..mudik

ilhamsp:
Lagi butuh energi untuk bekerja keras, butuh
optimisme utk masa depan dan butuh temen
hidup......hehe, cw lagi...cw lagi....basi ah!!!

=BonDan=
Satu hal yg gw butuhin saat ini .....:::
KEPASTIANN!!!!:::..........

** me **
gw skrng butuh tempat tidur gw, karena gw
ngantuk bgt nih...mana buka puasa masih lama
lagi...dah...itu dulu ntar kalo ada lg gw kabarin
yeee....

-ferry-
Kemudahan jalan dari Allah berupa petunjuk dan
hidayah untuk solusi permasalahan utama gue

*fifin*
saat ini gw butuh keimanan yg kuat buat nahan
minum..,haus bgt !!!mana org2 kanan kiri
minumnya nyante bgt..!!Huhhh..mdh2an iman gw
kuat buat nahan 3jam lagi, Amin!!

++j'adore hery++
pembokat pengganti yang mau nungguin rumah
pas libur lebaran..... kasian doggie gue &
arowana gue, gak ada yang kasih makan........

"Novell"
Tempat "underground" yang bisa bikin gue
ngelupain semua permasalahan hidup gue yang
ngga ada abisnya n bikin gue pusing ampe
sekarang, kalo bisa ditemenin ama temen2 yg
gue
suka n sambil fitness, trus didepannya ada
panggung kecil (kaya di CBGB) yang
mengusungkan musik hard rock live dari Metallica,
Muse, Linkin Park, The Killers, Korn dll dll...
Wuuiiihh... asik banget kali yaa, mungkin gue bisa
Happy bgt.... Losta Mastaaaa...!!!!

Ollaaa...
i need job =( n mau nge-bahagia-in "seseorang"
yang kemaren lagi sedih (mungkin sekarang juga)
=) i want to make him smile... karena dia bilang
cape n suntuk ama yang dijalaninnya saat ini... ya,
gue harap dia baca yang gue tulis ini... =p

djidjay/yunk
gw butuh duit buat kerjain tugas, gw butuh duit
buat makan (kurang makan ni), gw butuh asbak
yg gede buat nampung abu rokok gw, gw butuh
harddisk yg gede en memory yg gede biar bisa
kerjain tugas dkv gw, gw butuh kamar yg gede en
meja gede buat kerjain tugas jg, gw butuh cewe
yg selalu nemenin en perhatian plus ngerti bgt ttg
gw, dan yang terakhir gw butuh WAKTU untuk
segala2nya... (ga cukup kalo di tulis detail)

1. Guys don't actually look after good-lookinggirls.They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eatenalready?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but theycan't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and itis drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me.He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who hasdumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's noturning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You knowwhat?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting butthey usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makesany excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty.Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seekshelp from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in mini skirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy.
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watchout girls!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go ofthat girl.
50. GET TO THE POINT, don't beat around the bush... ^_^

IF SOMEONE HAD A GUN HELD IN FRONT OF
YOUR FACE
AND ASKED YOU IF YOU BELIEVED IN GOD,
WHAT WOULD
YOU DO? SAY NO AND FEEL ASHAMED THE
REST OF YOUR
LIFE? OR SAY YES, I DO, AND DIE STANDING
UP FOR GOD?

Note: This is a true article that was printed in
a
southern newspaper less then a year ago

TAKE A DEEP BREATH BEFORE READING
THIS

There was an atheist couple who had a child. The
couple never told their daughter anything about the
Lord. One night when the little girl was 5 years old,
the parents fought with each other and the dad
shot the Mom, right in front of the child. Then,
the dad shot himself. The little girl watched it
all. She then was sent to a foster home. The
foster mother was a Christian and took the child
to church. On the first day of Sunday School, the
foster mother told the teacher that the girl had
never heard of Jesus, and to have patience with
her. The
teacher held up a picture of Jesus and
said, "Does
anyone know who this is?" The little girl said, "I do,
that's the man who was holding me the night my
parents
died."

If you believe this little girl is telling the
truth that even though she had never heard of
Jesus, he still held her the night her parents
died, then you will forward this to as many people
as you can.

Or you can delete it as if it never touched your
heart.
______________________________________
_____

Funny, isn't it?

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God
and
then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Funny how we believe what the newspapers say,
but question what the Bible says.

Funny how everyone wants to go to heaven
provided they do not have to believe, think,
say, or
do anything the Bible says. (Or is it scary?)

Funny how someone can say "I believe in God"
but still follow Satan (who, by the way,
also "believes" in God).

Funny how you can send a thousand 'jokes'
through e-mail and they spread like wildfire,
but
when you start sending messages regarding the
Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene
pass freely through cyberspace, but the public
discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school
and workplace.

Funny how when you go to forward this message,
you will not send it to many on your address
list
because you're not sure what they believe, or
what
they will think of you for sending it to them.

Funny how we can go to church for Christ on
Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest
of
the week. (Are you laughing?)

Funny how I can be more worried about what
other
people think of me than what God thinks of me.
(Are you thinking ?)

Yes, I do Love God!

1) Kita dilahirkan dan tumbuh bersama2, kita juga merasakan kesenangan
sama2, tapi Kanapa elu mesti Mati duluan?? Ratap kakek 70 thn sambil
mandangin "burungnya".

2) Tentara Amerika masuk ke toko di Bagdad: "Condom please, size XL!"
Penjaga toko jawab: "Sorry Sir, no kid's size, we have only XXL or
XXXL here!"

3) Seorang Pria dgn terburu2 masuk ke WC Wanita dan si wanita menegur:
"THIS IS FOR LADIES!!". Si pria enggak kalah sengit sambil menunjuk
ke 'anunya' menjawab: "THIS IS FOR LADIES TOO !!!"

4) Pembantu ketemu kondom bekas lalu tanya: "Nyonya ini apa??"
Nyonya: "Kalian orang desa gak pernah main cinta!!"
Pembantu: "Pernah nyonya, cuma gak sampe kulitnya ngelupas!"

5) Survey membuktikan bahwa Pria akan lebih gemuk setelah menikah daripada Wanita. Karena Pria tiap malam dpt jatah: 2 Susu, 2 Paha, dan 1 Kue Apem, sedangkan Wanita hanya 2 Telor Puyuh 1 Pisang.

6) Seorangg anak Betawi yg baru pulang dari Amrik pamer: "Be, di sana ada mesin yg masuk daging keluar sosis."
Babenya bales: Enyak lu lebih hebat, masuk sosis keluar ente!!!

7) Ingin BESARKAN PAYUDARA / PENIS anda ??? Tanpa efek samping!!
Telah terbukti, Tanpa Bahan Kimia, Jaminan kami 100% Berhasil.
Gunakanlah: .KACA PEMBESAR.....

8) Perilaku SEX Pria tercermin dari merk Celana Dalamnya:
- SWAN : Suka Wanita Nakal
- HINGS : Hebat, Ideal Namun Gemar Selingkuh
- GT-MAN : Goyangan Ti2tnya MANtap

9) Seorang istri tanya kepada Ustadz: "Ustadz, apa hukumnya kalau seorang istri menghisap kemaluan suaminya??"
Jawab Ustadz: "Masya Allah, enak bener tuh Suami!!"

10) Orang Gila ditegur Orang Sumbing:
"Dasar gila, celana difake tutufin fala bukan difake tutufin
fantat.
Jawab orang gila: "Lu yang gila, bibir bagus2 pake digunting!!"

11) KONDOM protes pada SOFTEX:
"Ketika elu lagi dipake, penjualan gue anjlok selama 7 hari"
Jawab Softex: "Ah baru 7 hari, kalo lu bocor sekali aja, penjualan
gue Mandeg 9 bulan, tau!!"

12) Pantun Bugis:
"Kain batik selendang bedukang, di bawah pusar daging berlubang,
Jangan pegang punya si Abang, kalo kena si urat Panjang, air setitik menjadi ORANG"

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hoaaaaaaahhh!!
bad mood neh..
hari ini harusnya gw nyablon baju
tapi bete bgt gara2 harus ketemu dekan
en gw diharuskan buat surat permohonan
#$$#%#%
ga tao deh mo ngomong apa lg
yg jelas ini blog pertama gw nih.. jadi rada kaku
maklum2

sorry indonesian only..

hai my name is stey a.k.a djidjay
stey is my short name
my long name is stefanus eterno
i'm 21 years old and i live in indonesia
i'm the student of university of bina nusantara, jakarta
my major is graphic design
and this is my blog