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In my memory

That summer, we talked endlessly
always, about everything,
fusion, nothing new for you
i felt, hey, under and, cool breezes
the heavenly

face me, sitting in my memory,
hold me, i remember
face me, sitting in my memory,
hold me, i remember

and we argue, constantly
disagree, about everything
distance, nothing new for me
i feel uneasy, under this thing
thoughts away
the heavenly

face me, sitting in my memory,
hold me, i remember
face me, sitting in my memory,
hold me, i remember
i remember

and darkness falls in my eyes
and days are far from rosy now
and if i asked for the sky
would you still shelter me
when the sky falls

i remember
i remember

face me, sitting in my memory,
hold me, i remember
face me, hidden in my memory,
hold me, i remember
i remember
sitting in my memory
i remember

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huakakakakakakakak
hixxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
huaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
"tertawalah.. saat kita bertemu"
"menangislah.. saat kita berpisah"
dan "berteriaklah saat kita bertemu kembali"

gw sedih bgt kehilangan banyak orang yg deket ama gw... suatu saat emang kita harus berpisah dengan orang2 terdekat..
hix.. tambah lagi gw harus berpisah ama temen kita kamar no.7!! dogel kemaren baru berangkat. lorong setan "orchidhouse" kembali sunyi dari dentuman trebel nyata dan suara2 keras ego seorang DOGEL... T_T tersisa gw ama ipan en dudud deh.

but life must GO on..
and... let's torture the new guy!!!! muahauhauhauhauhauhauhauhauhauhauhauhau

Dark Poem



Underneath,
Underneath the warmth and smiles,
I am there

There is where I am frail and angry-
Trying so hard to understand,
And failing miserably

There is where I am rude and ugly,
Where I am tired and confused,
And no one seems to understand
My insanity

And down there is where I am a liar,
Where I am hurt and depressed,
And my self-loathing
Is impenetrable

And down there is where I question,
All that is me and surrounds me,
All of the masks that people wear,
So much like my own...

For, down there,
Where I am moody and sad,
I am possibly,
Absolutely,
Incredibly,

Alone.


Claire K.
written on 8/29/02

If One Day you feel like crying... Call me,
I don promise to make you laugh,
but i can cry with you.

If One Day you want to run away....Call me,
I don promise to stop you,
but i can run away with you.

If One Day you don want to talk to anyone... Call
me,
I promise to be there,
And listen to everything you say.

If One Day you get angry....Call me,
I will come running,
So there will be someone you can yell at.

But If One Day you call and there is no answer,
Come fast to see me,
I may need you.

Everyone always expects you to be there for
them....
But will they be there for you in your hour of
need....
That is a question worth pondering

Hello and goodbye

The life story of a women named Angela.

Anything resembling someone in this world is pureply coincedental


Hello Doctor; Thanks for bringing me into this life
Hello Mummy; Thanks for keeping me safely in there for nine months!
Hello Daddy; I look like you!
Hello Friend; I see you were just born today too!
Hello Sun; Thanks for your light!
Bye Hospital; It was nice while being there!
Hello World; Wow you're huge!
Hello Home; Thanks for making it Mum and Dad!
Hello Hunter; Good dog Hunter Good dog!
Hello Cot; I'll be sleeping in you for the next few years!
Hello Grandma and Grandpa; I like to be tickled please!
Hello Aunties and Uncles; Wow I have such a large family!
Hello Neighbour; Let's play! My name's Angela;
Hello Ashley; Nice to be your neighbour too!
Bye Daddy; See you after work!
Hello School Bus; First day in school will it be all right?
Bye Mummy; I'll see you when I'm back from school!
Hello Ashley; Nice to see I'm not alone!
Hello School; Wow it's big compared to our house!
Hello Mrs. Smith; I like you as our principal!
Hello Mrs. Buns; Glad to be in your class!
Bye new friends; See you tomorrow!
Hello Mummy; I'm back from school and I met new friends!
Hello Daddy; was work fine today?

Bye Mrs. Buns, Mrs. Smith; It was nice being in kindergarten!
Hello Elementary School; Whoa! It's even bigger than my kindergarten!
Hello Mr. Tetch; I hope you'll be a good principal.
Hello Eddie; Ouch don't pull my hair!
Hello Mummy; Eddie stole my lunch...
Hello Computer; You're like another world!
Bye Elementary School; Hello Junior High!
Hello Miss. Tercher; I hope you aren't strict...
Hello Eddie; DON'T STEAL MY STUFF!
Hello Mummy; School wasn't all that nice...
Hello Joseph; Nice to meet you too.
Hello Mary; Nice to know you!
Hello Thomas; Nice to meet you!
Bye Grandpa; I miss you...
Bye Junior High, I hope High School is better...
Hello High School; Doesn't look like its going to be any different...
Hello Eddie; You look handsome!
Hello Mr. Jones; Fine morning isn't it?
Hello Eddie; Sure I love to go on a date with you!
Hello Ashley; Congratulations you're on the honour roll!
Bye Joseph; Why did you kill yourself?
Hello Thomas; You and Ashley make a cute couple!
Bye High School; It was fun!
Hello College; Looks like it's going to be tough...
Hello Ashley; Glad to see you made it too!
Hello Eddie; Glad to see you too! I love you!
Bye Mary; Why didn't you drive carefully?
Bye College; Now to start work!

Hello Eddie; Of course I'll marry you!
Bye Grandma; I miss you!
Hello Boss; I'll work diligently!
Hello Pastor; I do!
Bye Mum and Dad; I'm off to live with Eddie!
Hello New Home; Well it may be small but it is our home!
Hello Promotion; I'm glad I'm doing well in my work!
Hello Eddie; I've a surprise for you!
Hello Doctor; I'm here for my first child!
Hello Mum and Dad; Aren't you glad?
Hello Tommy, Welcome to the world my little one!
Hello Ashley; Sure I'll come to your wedding!
Hello Thomas; You look fantastic!
Bye Ashley and Thomas, have a nice time during your honeymoon!
Bye Richard; have fun at school!
Hello New Home; Just how I like it!

Hello Police; What! Eddie's in an accident?
Hello Doctor; Will Eddie live?
Hello Eddie; Please wake up...
Hello Richard; Daddy will come home soon.
Hello Ashley; Eddie got into a serious accident and he's in a coma...
Hello Eddie; Please wake up...
Hello Boss; I need some time off. Thanks for being understanding...
Hello Doctor; No... it can't be... he can't be gone...
Bye Eddie; You were a great father and husband...
Hello Ashley; Thanks for being there when I needed you.
Hello Richard; You've been a strong boy!

Bye Dad, I miss you.
Hello Boss; Yes I'm doing fine, thanks for checking!
Hello Boss; Good to see you again!
Hello Elsie; Treat her well Richard, I hope to have her as my daughter-in-law.
Hello Ashley; Congratulations on you having twins!
Hello Eddie; It feels empty without you beside me.
Bye Mum, I miss you...
Hello Richard; No you're not getting a Harley. You need the money for college.

Hello Elsie; Welcome to the family!
Hello Ashley; What? I'm so sorry you lost your child!
Hello Doctor; I've been having massive headaches and dizzy spells;
Hello Richard and Elsie; The doctor says I'm very sick.
Hello Catherine; Its nice to see my grandchild.

Hello Ashley; I don't have long now.
Hello Pastor; Yes I think 87 years is a long time.
Hello Richard, don't cry.
Hello Elsie, please don't cry either.
Hello Ashley and Thomas! I didn't expect you to come down!
Bye Ashley, thanks for being my best friend all these years.
Bye Richard; Be the good boy you always are.
Bye Elsie; Take care of Catherine well.
Bye Catherine; be good to your mum and dad.
Bye Thomas; Watch that hair of yours.
Bye World, You were a fun, loving, but cruel place and I love you for it.

Hello St. Peter; Thanks for letting me in!
Hello Eddie, Mum, Dad; Its lovely to see you again...
Hello God...

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Drive
By Incubus

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.

So, if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
Aah-ah-oo-o-o.

It's driven me before and it seems to be the way
that everyone else gets around.
But lately I'm beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeahhh
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there...I'll be there.

Would you choose water over wine....hold the wheel and drive?

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.
Do do do do do do do do

Manusia Bodoh by AdaBand

E F#
Dahulu terasa indah
B E B
Tak ingin lupakan
c#m B F# B
Bermesraan selalu jadi Satu kenangan manis
A G#m
Tiada yang salah
F#m G# C#m B
Hanya aku manusia bodoh
A G#m F#m G#m
Yang biarkan semua ini permainkanku
Am B
Berulang ulang ulang kali

Reff :
E B C#m
Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
B F#m B
Layaknya karang yang dihempas sang ombak
E B C#m
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
B F#m B
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir
G#m A G#m
Tapi sampai kapankah kuharus
A F#m B
Menanggungnya kutukan cinta ini
E Esus2 E
Bersemayam dalam kalbu
E F#
Tak ayal tingkah lakumu
B E B
Buatku putus asa
C#m B F#
Kadang akal sehat ini
B
Belum cukup membendungnya
A G#m
Hanya kepedihan
F#m G# C#m B
Yang selalu datang menertawakanku
A G # m
Engkau belahan jiwa
F#m G#m Am B
Tega menari indah di atas tangisanku

Bridge :
C G A
Semua kisah pasti ada akhir
B E
Yang harus dilalui
C G B
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini
B
Yakinku indah

chapter 2
hubungan disconnect vs. bingung?









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chapter 1
merenung

awan hitam masi belum selesai menjatuhkan butir2 air kehidupannya, hawa dingin bertiup dari ujung jalan kos2an becek, bergelombang dan remang2 terlihat 1 rumah yang kontras yang ada di deretan gedung2 kos berlantai 3 dari rumah itu, yang konon juga kos. terlihat sosok seseorang duduk di teras. ia diam membisu. depan lantai dua. ia duduk termenung menyandarkan dagunya di bibir tembok teras. lampu di teras mati sejak sore, kelam menggambarkan perasaan sosok diam itu. memandangi air yang jatuh vertikal bermil2 jauhnya dari angkasa, serasa ingatan kembali ke masa lalu saat ia nonton film Matrix dengan code2 yang jatuh dengan karakter yang tidak jelas. terlintas ia memandangi pantulan air pada genangan air di bawah. sungguh lucu ia pikir apa yang ia lakukan disana dan apa yang dipikirkan?? dalam kepalanya, otaknya berteriak2 keras dengan mencontek suara chester 'linkin park' .. "..don't turn ur back on me and i won't be ignored!". seiring otaknya memainkan permainan musik dan berteriak2, lalu ia mengangkat kepalanya dan mulutnya komat kamit menyanyikan lagu itu tanpa mengeluarkan suara, sambil kepala di angguk2an mengikuti beat yang ada pada lagu itu didalam kepalanya.

hari ini.. lagi (18jan05)

hari ini.... ANEH

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hari ini..
hari ini hari sabtu, malming neh
ga ujan, ga cerah, ga mendung, ga panas
soalnya yg gw liat cuman gelap
ga bisa liat cuaca hari ini gmana
bangun jam 7 malem
yg gw lakukan semalem cuman kaskus.com
en appzpla.net trus donlod jg
ga penting banget deh
tapi ga ada kerjaan
ga ada temen ga ada gawe
yg bisa gw lakukan cuman duduk
en perhatiin box di depan badan gw
yg selalu nyala dengan tuts keyboard en mouse

lucu.. hidup gw cuman sebatas semua kabel
yang nyambung di CPU en cuman sebates
sendal jepit yg gw pake ke kampus
tangan gw cuman kepake bwat hal2 yang
bisa di bilang useless.. jari gw cuman kuat
bwat megang rokok2 yang gw isap
otak gw kepake 10%nya bwat mikirin kuliah
sisanya adalah apa yg gw liat di depan mata gw
sekarang..
yg gw pikirin adalah apa orang lain seperti gw?
gw rasa engga deh.. ga semua
semua yg gw lakukan cuman sebatas untuk
kesenangan gw.
tapi untungnya gw bisa lewatin hari2 buruk gw
selama semester ini. gw yakin gw bisa bangkit
dalam hal kuliah gw.. gw mulai banyak belajar
walau terlambat 2 tahun lebih untuk sadar
bahwa apa yg gw jalanin di kuliahan itu penting
tapi ga semua gw senengin dari kuliah
gw benci birokrasi di kampus.. SUX
smoga gw lulus dengan baik

soal cewe? haha!
ngomgongin cewe pasti berhubungan dengan
pacaran..
gw benci soal ngomongin cewe..
walau gw selalu butuh untuk selalu
nemenin gw, dengerin keluhan gw, pelok gw
dari belakang saat gw lg stress en bingung,
pegang tangan gw saat nonton bioskop en
bilang 'gw sayang lu'.
indah yah di pikir2 apa yang di bayangin
dari pacaran.. ah itu FELEM banget seh
apa ada yg begitu?? ga smuah!!
toh film cuman di buat singkat, ya ga?
realitas dari pacaran lebih detail di banding itu
then gw terlalu tua untuk ngomongin cewe
yg gw bayangin selama ini adalah cinta2 monyet
ah... sekarang kalo terlintas pikiran untuk pacaran
terlintas pula pemikiran untuk punya tanggung jawab
yang gede.. yah gitu lah, ga bisa maen2 lagi
dah terlalu tua untuk melakukan hal2 gila
seperti yg gw denger dari temen2 gw..
so.. i hate to talk bout this.. i keep in my mind
maybe sometimes i relize that what i'm thinkin'
bout thiz is wrong.. or maybe right

oh yeah
saat ini gw jg berpikir
apa blog ini berguna bwat gw untuk gw tulis
toh ga ada yg baca? useless banget..
kalo pun ada yg baca, thx banget
gw mengharapkan untuk di kasi komen dan
di kasi nasehat..
gw ngerasa selama ini gw merasa kesepian
kenapa sih harus terjadi ama gw
gw ngerasa butuh perhatian..
entah sama sapa aja!!
kesannya gw mengemis banget en minta
simpati orang lain nih.. but it's true..!!
i need somebody, i need someone to say "hi"
need someone to say "how r u" "how is ur day"
"how is ur assgmnt" "how is ur college"
"how tall r u now" "how long ur hair rite now"
"let's go lunch" "let's go to the pool"
i miss that word.. really2 i missed them all now
apa yg gw rasain saat ini cuman kehampaan
walau gw berada di tempat yang rame
definisi rame bagi gw cuman hanya
dentuman bassnya ipan, en gemercik treble nya dogel
umm.. btw i really like 'em
but so little time to met them
i miss my x girl.. i dunno wich one
i miss them all.. thx for everything
but can u msg me at once?
impossible rite?
all i feel rite now juz emptiness
my head always yelling to me to shout
to everybody who i know well "please don't TURN ur back
and don't ignored me!! i'm human as u all!!"
i hate to be ignored..
u know.. when i had bad day before (smester 3-6)
i used to think bout suicide.. fool huh?
gw emang bego banget.. napa bisa berpikiran gitu
untung ga gw lakukan.. gw ga mau membuat
hal2 yang gw lakukan bwat org2 sia2
gw ngerasa apa yg gw lakukan bwat org2 itu berharga
bwat mereka.. gw ga mau bwat mereka sedih..
apa lagi keluarga.. ga kebayang lg..
hehe.. i'm starting to cry.. it's really funny
to cry in my room.. ALONE
forget it.. forget it.. i'm the man!! i'm the man!!
i'll change the topic

bout my bad habit
hmm... lg coba untuk berenti
gw selalu inget ama x gw
yg slalu bilang bwat berenti rokok
susahh.. itu yg bisa gw bilang
dah mendarah daging.. artinya darah en seluruh
isi dalam tubuh gw butuh itu.. itu yg gw rasain
i can't stop it before i have sex
heheh kidding!!!!! (juz trying to stop feel sad)
okay.. komitmen gw kali ini berenti rokok
saat gw bisa lupain semua kesedihan gw en
beban gw selama ini..

udah dulu bwat nulis ini deh
bingung mo tulis apa
then gw cuman mo bilang kalo gw ini
orang yg ga bisa nulis sama skali
ga ada bakat nulis. BAD writer huh?
that's all
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by: Naff